Untalented, unloved, unwanted, rejected, alone.
When I chase my dreams all I get is knocked down and told I'm not good enough.
Everyone says "Oh believe you can, you can! You can do anything you set your mind to!"
Well that doesn't apply to me apparently.
I feel like I've wasted my time for the last twelve years, working hard and getting excited and then my biggest dream being crushed.
So many hopes and tears, wasted on this. Now I get to watch the others have fun and do something that I know for a fact I want way more than them.
I don't know if I should try again, because I can't stand this pain anymore and I don't want to go through it again, but I want this more than anything in the world
No one knew or will ever know how much this meant to me or how much I want it. I guess giving someone a chance is out of style now. Everyone thinks it's no big deal ,but to me, it was everything I looked forward to and hoped for. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about it.
This is a depressing post, but I have no one else who wants to hear to this, so this blog will hafta do.
Another terrible school year for me, yay.
I'll be back tomorrow, happier I hope. :'(